Bleah.

Apr. 11th, 2002 05:59 pm
gridlore: Doug looking off camera with a grin (Default)
[personal profile] gridlore
I had another fucking seizure. First in nine months. I was beginning to hope that I'd never have one again. So much for that dream!



Felt horrible from the moment I woke up this morning, sort of like I was coming down with something. Like an idiot, I go to work anyway. At about 1030, I'm signing into the UA Theater for my patrol there, and wham! I wake up on the floor, tired, confused, and aphasic as hell. End up with half the Colma emergency services standing around me, plus an AMR rig.

They take me to Seton Medical Center, which I've never been to before (You know you've been a cancer patient too long when you start comparison-shopping ERs.) I get the twice over from the RN's and a doctor. The real fun part is nobody there has ever heard of my anticonvulsant medication before! Trying to explain your course of treatment when you can't remember how to say a third of the words is really fun, trust me.

Since it was obvious that I wasn't going serial on them, they drew blood (It took three punches.. two in the same vein. Never get a RN to do a vampire's job!) I was then allowed to rest while they waited for word from the lab and Kirsten got there. During this time, I listened to the woman in the next curtain describe a textbook stroke, and got some juicy gossip from the nurses' station.

Kirsten showed up right after I got my walking (staggering) papers.. then we dealt with my leads.. For some reason, EMTs and nurses always hit the hairiest spots on my chest when they glue sensor leads to me. Today, I ended up with *six* of the suckers. Using a solvent provided by the ER staff, we got the three slapped on by Colma FD, and one of the evil Red Dot patches that was placed on a spot that was mostly hairless. The other two I was going to remove at home.

But first, food. When I seize, I come out of it with three reactions: I'm exhausted, confused, and starving. So we went to Sizzler after I took the work phone back to the guard shack. Good steak. Homeward bound.

Once back home, I headed into the shower while Kirsten called my neurologist and the members of the extended family. I the shower, my attempts to melt the glue met with partial success. I now have several bald, red patches on my chest.

I fucking hate epilepsy. Compared with this disease, everything else about my Hodgkin's has been a walk in the bloody park. I despise the fact that I lose control of my body, that for a few minutes I cease being human and become this twitching animal. Of course, I brought this upon myself.. working 7 days a week, up to 14 hours a day between the guard gig and writing the book, not eating well, and not slowing down when my allergies started hitting me. And it could have been worse... I could have collapsed in the parking lot, or in the middle of Colma Blvd.

So, I'm going to be fuzzy headed for the next 12 hours or so, while my brain unscrambles. It was interesting; when I came to I could smell fresh-baked chocolate-chip cookies and taste tacos. There was a clear, bell-like tone in my ears. No weird memory flashes this time.

Date: 11 Apr 2002 18:18 (UTC)
From: [identity profile] johno.livejournal.com
{{{hugs}}}

You know you've too many sick friends, when they tell their emergency stories, you know where the fuckups occure before they actually get to that part.

Date: 11 Apr 2002 18:44 (UTC)
ext_29896: Lilacs in grandmother's vase on my piano (Default)
From: [identity profile] glinda-w.livejournal.com
eep.

GoodThoughts on the way...

--glinda, feeling grateful that she's 'only' dealing with CFS, chronic migraines, and a sinus infection right now

Memory flashes..

Date: 11 Apr 2002 18:53 (UTC)
ext_39067: (Default)
From: [identity profile] kath8562.livejournal.com
If you were smelling chocolate chip cookies and
tasting tacos, those were memory flashes-
only the memories where tastes and smel,
not visual.
ps-do you have a medic alert braclet?
Have the drug either engraved on it, or
if medic alert has such a thing, placed
in their database with a contact phone #
on the bracelet.

(of course, here I sit, with a penicillin allergy
and on several meds for manic depression,
including an anticonvulsive, and no medid alet
-and I work in a Pharmacy!)

MedicAlert jewelry

Date: 11 Apr 2002 20:49 (UTC)
kshandra: A cross-stitch sampler in a gilt frame, plainly stating "FUCK CANCER" (bear)
From: [personal profile] kshandra
Every time we say "You know, you really need one," the thirty bucks for the basic medallion winds up going somewhere else, like an overdue bill. If I was thinking, I'd type all the info up on something he could keep in his wallet....

Re: MedicAlert jewelry

Date: 11 Apr 2002 21:35 (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tsjafo.livejournal.com
Get some blank dog tags and get 'em engraved. If you can't get dogtags, let me know, I live near a base and can get 'em. He should be comfortable wearing dogtags, hell, I still were mine.

Re: MedicAlert jewelry

Date: 11 Apr 2002 22:28 (UTC)
kshandra: A cross-stitch sampler in a gilt frame, plainly stating "FUCK CANCER" (bear)
From: [personal profile] kshandra
You know, that makes entirely too much sense....

There's an engraver that works the local con circuit who does nice, brightly colored tags; we can pick up a red one for him there. (They're much more legible than standard tags, too - [livejournal.com profile] dafydd has one he wears when he goes running so he isn't loaded down with ID or anything.)

Re: MedicAlert jewelry

Date: 11 Apr 2002 23:27 (UTC)
From: [identity profile] johno.livejournal.com
I know the dealer you're speaking of and we plan on getting new tags for the kittens (young cats now) at Baycon.

When you mentioned getting one for Doug, I pictured him in a dog collar with the tag hanging down.

Re: MedicAlert jewelry

Date: 12 Apr 2002 03:35 (UTC)
kshandra: A cross-stitch sampler in a gilt frame, plainly stating "FUCK CANCER" (tease)
From: [personal profile] kshandra
No, that's far more my kink. ;-)

Re: MedicAlert jewelry

Date: 12 Apr 2002 08:08 (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gridlore.livejournal.com
The same guy who did the name tags, right? ISTR that he does bright red dog tags. Those would work well.

DOUGLAS BERRY
(your pager number) TO NOTIFY WIFE
STAGE IV-B HODGKIN'S DISEASE AND EPILEPSY
TAKES TRILEPTAL. ALLERGIC TO ASPIRIN

Re: MedicAlert jewelry

Date: 12 Apr 2002 20:30 (UTC)
kshandra: A cross-stitch sampler in a gilt frame, plainly stating "FUCK CANCER" (bear)
From: [personal profile] kshandra
ISTR that he does bright red dog tags. Those would work well.

Exactly the ones I was thinking of.

(And maybe Dr. F's number on the opposite side, in case we run into another ER with no experience with Trileptal....)

Re: MedicAlert jewelry

Date: 13 Apr 2002 22:35 (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gdmusumeci.livejournal.com
He should be comfortable wearing dogtags, hell, I still were mine.

Kind of interesting, isn't it? If I forget to put mine on and I go out the door without them on, I feel like part of me is missing.

Very strange.


Clear skies, stout hearts.

Re: MedicAlert jewelry

Date: 14 Apr 2002 21:54 (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tsjafo.livejournal.com
Do anything for 20+ years, it becomes a habit. *sigh*

Re: Memory flashes..

Date: 12 Apr 2002 08:05 (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gridlore.livejournal.com
If you were smelling chocolate chip cookies and tasting tacos, those were memory flashes- only the memories where tastes and smel, not visual.

Usually I have complete chunks of memory knocked loose. Like last August when the seizures were getting really bad, I had one and woke up clearly remembering about five minutes of a soccer game I played in when I was eight.

Date: 11 Apr 2002 19:05 (UTC)
From: [identity profile] valkyrwench.livejournal.com
*hugs* and good thoughts. I'll stick with my arthritis flare.

Date: 11 Apr 2002 20:23 (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mactavish.livejournal.com
I'm just coming out of a months-long flare. But I'll take it over seizures.

Date: 11 Apr 2002 19:24 (UTC)
From: [identity profile] fimbrethil.livejournal.com
Aw fuck! I'm sorry man. Liam's Dad, actually Liam's family, has alcohol related epilepsy. Seizures only happen after they try to stop drinking following a prolonged period of excessive drinking. That's why it was even harder for his Dad to stop. The seizures were worse that the DT's. Hugs and be well.

Date: 11 Apr 2002 20:24 (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mactavish.livejournal.com
Is the cookies-and-tacos combination one you'd recommend?

I'm glad you were somewhere safe, too, and had people take care of you right away.

Date: 12 Apr 2002 08:11 (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gridlore.livejournal.com
Is the cookies-and-tacos combination one you'd recommend?

Oddly, it was two distinct memories overlapping each other, so there was no conflict. It is very hard to describe the sensation, but I had the full taste of the tacos, which includes smell, without the sensation of smelling them, and the scent of the cookies. Very strange, but that what's happpens when your brain goes zot.

Date: 11 Apr 2002 21:37 (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tsjafo.livejournal.com
*hugs* Seizures suck! Will this have any affect on your job? I think you are right, you gotta start taking better care of yourself.

Date: 12 Apr 2002 08:13 (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gridlore.livejournal.com
Will this have any affect on your job?

It better not! I told them on my application that I was epileptic, and since they bothered to interview me before hioring me, if they try to make an issue of it now, I will see them in court.

Date: 11 Apr 2002 23:01 (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dandelion-diva.livejournal.com
*HUG* I'm sorry this happened...glad it wasn't any worse though.

Gesi

Date: 12 Apr 2002 01:46 (UTC)

Date: 12 Apr 2002 13:07 (UTC)
From: [identity profile] eleri.livejournal.com
*fretfussworry* meep!*hugglessnuggles*

Date: 12 Apr 2002 13:51 (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gridlore.livejournal.com
I feel better already.

Date: 16 Apr 2002 12:12 (UTC)
From: [identity profile] figmo.livejournal.com
Sheeit.

I was busy dealing with Warren's neurological problems Thursday.

He and you have things in common I wish neither of you had. :-(

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