I am so sick of this.

[gridlore]

Yesterday I had a chance to get together with my oldest friend. We've known each other since we were four, grew up as next door neighbors, and as happens with adulthood, drifted apart. It was great to see Bill again, and we went out to Chili's for lunch. I had one beer. I didn't overeat, nor did I do anything stressful.

Last night I barely slept. Today, I'm running a pretty good fever and feel like crap. I guess I can't be around people without getting sick unto death. I'm weak as a kitten, in near constant pain, and I'm really depressed about this being my reality for the rest of my life.

I'm tired of being brave. I'm tired of being sick. I'm tired of putting on a good face for the world. I'm tired of adjusting my expectations.

And Barry Zito is pissing me off.

Comments

[dalen-talas.livejournal.com]

Man, that really sucks.

Would some Manowar help with the morale at all?

[bkwrrm-tx.livejournal.com]

Damn hon... :-(

***hugs***

/at least virtual hugs won't give you any cooties/

[valkyrwench.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[suzilem.livejournal.com]

Hugs and healing wishes

[murphymom.livejournal.com]

That's craptastic - hope you get better quickly.

[melchar.livejournal.com]

Hugs from someone who has always been a canary in the in the mineshaft of life. You have my profound sympathy.

[fimbrethil.livejournal.com]

I'm tired of being brave. I'm tired of being sick. I'm tired of putting on a good face for the world. I'm tired of adjusting my expectations.

I seeble this. Not sick like you of course, but sick in a different way. It's a horrible way to be. You adjust to the new reality and then it changes again, leaving you drained and without much hope that it will ever get better. I feel for you and I'm sorry this is all so hard. I wish you could have your health and your life back. I wish I could do more than give you cyberhugs.