It wasn't her word, either.

[gridlore]

meglimir never gave up. She fought to the last, in a battle she knew from the start was most likely going to end in her death. She never surrendered.

It's hard to describe just how alone cancer makes you feel. Your own body has turned on you, become a battleground, and your fate is suddenly in the hands of people you don't know, many of whom you'll never meet. We watch friends and family try not to react to how we've changed, try to be upbeat while their eyes reflect the horror and pity. On our part, we fight a constant battle against despair. When being able to pick up the TV remote is asking too much, when you break down in tears at the thought of another chemo or radiotherapy session, when you throw up the sixth meal in a row, when you don't recognize your own body in the mirror, when embracing death seems better than dealing with this pain another day.. how do you endure? Where do you get the energy to smile at your spouse, and tell them that you're doing OK?

Ruby Meg fought a battle vastly tougher than the one I fought and battled for a far longer time. In her own postings and those of her family you'll see a warrior's heart. A woman who never let the reality of fate overwhelm her. Cancer ended her biological processes. It never ended her life. Surrender was not a word in her lexicon.

Lead the Way, meglimir

Fuck Cancer.

Comments

AMEN!

[kath8562.livejournal.com]

Anyone who can fight cancer, even if they don't always win the fight,
are incredable people. I see the fighters at work (had a visit from an subbornly fighting cancer gentleman at our pharmacy today, as a matter of fact) and I stand in awe of them.
And yes Ruby Tuesday (as I seem to remember her from a.c.) will be missed.

Re: AMEN!

[kshandra]

Yes, that was her. She started out as Rolybear, segued into Ruby Tuesday (and RubyTues once she started doing IRC as well as the newsgroup), and ultimately decided on Meglimir.

[claidheamhmor]

Condolences. :( Reading her husband's journal brought tears to my eyes. It looks like she was much loved.

[shadowcat48li.livejournal.com]

she was such a wonderful lady, I think we can learn a lot about how to live and die with grace. theres a seat by the fire up there in Callahans for her.