gridlore: Doug looking off camera with a grin (Penguin - Exploding)
Douglas Berry ([personal profile] gridlore) wrote2014-09-19 04:33 pm
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I'm going to throw things at the wall for a while...

Long-time readers will remember that for a time I was working very hard to get a job as a public safety dispatcher. I was in the 99th Percentile on the POST exams, interviewed fairly well, and even made a few hire lists.

Then I got back to driving. When that ended due to my health, I came close to applying for a few dispatching jobs, but they would have required relocating, and with [personal profile] kshandra starting at EarthBaby, I didn't want to upset that apple cart.

Then I had my stroke.

Today, I keep hearing how the San Jose Police Department is hiring 19 dispatchers. Dates for the POST tests, hiring dates, starting salaries, the whole nine yards.

And I can't do it. Besides the aphasia, I get tired too fast. So one of my dream jobs is opening up literally two miles from me, and I can't bloody do it.

Yes, throwing things at the walls. Just the thing right now.
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[personal profile] nodrog 2014-09-24 12:03 pm (UTC)(link)
The only “coping strategy” here is to deliberately cultivate sour grapes.  You didn't get hired then, so you probably wouldn't have been hired now either.

[In all seriousness, if you could look into a crystal ball and see How It Would Have Been, you might laugh, albeit in a bitter, ironic way.  Check it out - I didn't get the job anyway!

Believe me, I know all about lost opportunities.  I also know that some of them never existed, and others I did better to miss.