gridlore: Doug looking off camera with a grin (Death)
Douglas Berry ([personal profile] gridlore) wrote2010-01-06 06:53 am
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Self-indulgent whining ahead.

I'm home.

I was at work, merrily loading my truck, when I lifted one of my gates and a pike got rammed through my sternum. I cannot wait until the end of the month for this surgery. I'm calling them today and saying it needs to be moved up, I cannot do my job, I cannot function like this. End of story. They can bump someone getting an elective procedure. I don't care.

These days I'm just sick of my body. For fifteen years it has been betraying me and keeping me from doing the one thing in life I really love doing, driving for a living. How many of you actually sing as you start your job? I do. Almost every day I walk out to my truck singing something. Bill Kirchen, Jerry Reed... something appropriate. I do this because I love what I do so much that I look forward to doing it every day. As much as I bitch about it, I honestly love my job.

But now, again, my fucking body has gotten in the way of me doing my job. What's worse, it's added to the burden of my coworkers. Raul has to do a couple of stops in Santa Cruz and then cover my route. Not fair to him. When I have my surgery they'll have to cover my route for a couple of weeks. Not fair then. I'm 43 years old. I should be able to show up to work and do my freaking job on a daily basis without having to worry about my fucking gall bladder!

Extremely frustrated, and tired, and sick of it all. When the hell can I arrange to be uploaded into a nanomachine cloud?
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[personal profile] seawasp 2010-01-06 03:38 pm (UTC)(link)
But if you were uploaded into a nanomachine cloud, how would you drive a truck?

[identity profile] gridlore.livejournal.com 2010-01-06 03:46 pm (UTC)(link)
Direct interface! I would be the truck! And the forklift!
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[personal profile] seawasp 2010-01-06 05:33 pm (UTC)(link)
Then you'd feel the rough road, scrapes and bumps, and all that!

[identity profile] gridlore.livejournal.com 2010-01-06 07:00 pm (UTC)(link)
Like I don't now? I often dream of getting the Director of the California Department of Transportation in my truck to show him what our "paved" roads feel like on truck springs.
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[personal profile] seawasp 2010-01-06 07:01 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah, but when the paint gets scraped or you bang into something because your customer assured you there was plenty of space and he defined "plenty" as 3/4" wider than your truck, YOU don't end up bruised!

[identity profile] gridlore.livejournal.com 2010-01-07 12:37 am (UTC)(link)
No, I end up bruised when the customer orders 2,000' of 20' Unistrut then doesn't have a forklift. Or anyone to help me offload. I do have the option of saying "I'm not driving there" if I feel that the space is unsafe or not large enough.

And being a foglet means at the end of the day I flow out and do something else! Yes, no more beer, but I'm sure I could find ways to amuse myself. For example, ride in a baseball during a major league game.

[identity profile] fangedfaerie.livejournal.com 2010-01-06 04:43 pm (UTC)(link)
But if you were uploaded, how could you give/receive hugs?

[identity profile] gridlore.livejournal.com 2010-01-06 07:00 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm not really that tactile a person to begin with.

[identity profile] murphymom.livejournal.com 2010-01-06 06:38 pm (UTC)(link)
Aw, crap - I'm sorry, Doug. You really have had more than your fair ration of health issues, and I wish I could fix it for you.