(TW for talk of vomit.)

I've talked on here many times before about "hunger nausea," one of the possible hunger signals my body gives me, usually when the need to eat is urgent or semi-urgent. Which, as you can imagine, is super annoying because it kind of kills any appetite I might have. But at least I have always taken care of it before it got to the point of actual vomiting. Until today. (At least, I don't recall it ever happening before.)

See, I had a small breakfast, then went out to the library and then the grocery store for a few things, then went home. By the time I got home, I was experiencing hunger nausea. My appetite was killed. I looked around for something to try to eat anyway, and didn't find anything I could manage to get down. The only thing I could get in my stomach was Diet Dr. Pepper. I drank the whole 20 ounce bottle and then made the mistake of sitting down to write. When I hyper-focus on anything, my body could literally be doing anything at all short of the kind of gas-like pain of IBS diarrhea, and I won't be aware of it at all.

So, naturally, when I got up to pee or something (I honestly don't remember why I got up), the hyper-focus broke, everything came rushing back, and because I had already been hunger nauseous before writing, and it had been like an hour or more, I got hit with such an intense hunger nausea that I ran to the bathroom and puked up all that soda, or at least I think I did given the color and volume of the puke.

Thankfully, I felt much better after this. I have always been worried that if I puked while hunger nauseous that the nausea would just intensify from the stomach being even emptier than usual. But nope. I felt better. Had some real, sugared lemonade and some chicken, and I'm feeling even better.

Bleh, I hate my body sometimes. But in my absent-mindedness, I ignored a clear signal from my body while being aware of it, and set myself up for a much worse situation. So I hate my brain right now too.