gridlore: Old manual typewriter with a blank sheet of paper inserted. (Writing)
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OK, I've been really bad about writing. Which pisses me off after successfully finishing the March challenge to write my 750 words every day of the month. I said I'd take a few days off, but I've gone way over that.

Part of it is stress. I'm dealing with the ongoing tumor treatments on my back. This is particularly annoying, as it is so drawn out. I have three sites. Each one has to get an approval for a biopsy, approval for a removal after the biopsy, and then repeating the process for the next site. The largest basal-cell tumor (the size of a freaking cashew) was removed, and the next removal is in two weeks. But this means that I have to do wound care and deal with some discomfort from having stitches in my back almost all the time.

Then there's the new tattoo. Yeah, I got it, and I was a stressed-out mess in the day leading up because, between my medical history and my history with bad tattoos, I was a bit worried about my appointment. Luckily, my tattoo artist, Alex at Black Dolphin, was great and I have my new tattoo is great! But again, I'm dealing with wound care for the tattoo. Still, love it.

Then there's simple writer's block. I can't tell you how many times I've opened 750words.com and just stared at the blank screen in frustration. I've tried my usual writing exercises, wrote rants about the Giants' slow start to the season that petered out after 200 words, and ended up rage-quitting the site.

Damn, it'd be nice to be able to drink booze on days like that.

But I'm trying. As I told Kirsten the other day, I need to buy a new notebook to organize my notes for the novel. I'm hoping to begin to block out a timeline and chapter outlines soon, along with a full list of major characters on both sides of the story. I can see where I want to go, the real task is getting things down. As this is going to be my National Novel Writing Month project, actual writing will commence November 1st. Expect calls for beta-readers around that time.

What else is going on, as I strive to find another 350 or so words to fill this out? Work on the Free Trailer Beowulf continues. This weekend, as the rains appear to have finally tapered off, we're painting the red stripe and the Imperial Sunburst man stencil. We tried to do the stripe with tape, but it didn't hold that well. So we have very nice red paint and a reflective covering coat. The Man is doing to be in black. We still need to make or buy the "Free Trailer Beowulf" lettering stencils.

Also on the list is installing the new roof vent. As I think I've mentioned before, the person who built this trailer installed a vent cover instead of an actual vent hatch that can be closed. This is an issue that probably led to the mold problem. We need to install and seal the new window we had cut at Tap Plastics. Finally, the guy who owns the custom door and window shop next to Kirsten's warehouse has offered to spray coat the interior with a dark stain and a sealing coat. Which will make the interior look amazing, as we've picked up glow-in-the-dark stars to put on the walls and ceiling.

It's going to be amazing when it's done. I just want it done. Which leads to another source of spoon-eating stress for me. I have a lot of trouble helping with these activities, because of the damage that I'd accumulated over the years. I get tired too fast, lose my words, and can't remember what I'm doing.

Such is life.

So, writing. I have to be better about this. I need to set aside a four-hour block each day for research, note-taking, writing drafts, and editing. I need to plot out some short stories and submit them until something sticks somewhere. I need to write enough articles for Chris Garcia until he gives up and produces the Douglas Berry issue of Journey Planet. I need to reclaim the discipline that I learned in the Army.

Because writing is what I have left. I'm never going to be a truck driver or dispatcher again. I can't go back to school with this Swiss-cheese brain, and my odd of getting drafted by the Giants to play left field are growing dimmer by the day. (Although, given the recent play of our outfield, you never know.)

So, this is a new start. They may not always make sense, but there will be something every day, or I'll tell you why I missed a day.
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